[ peter blames himself for it anyway. not as much as he used to, but talking about it is always a reminder of what he's done wrong. like exploding in new york is a reminder of how dangerous he can be - other people's reactions are everything and knowing how others feel are all that matters at time when he wants to know if he's done something wrong. they're not all and he knows, he knows it's not his fault but at the same time he's completely aware that without his help, they wouldn't have been anything at all. ]
I just need you to know. I don't want you to talk to him but you will because I can't tell you what to do and i'm not going to try. [ though he wishes he could. ] But you need to know who he is, Claire. Because he won't tell you the truth.
[ She's never going to hold him accountable, not for things like this and not for nearly as long as she holds others accountable. There are plenty of things that Claire blames herself for - losing Meredith, allowing Sylar to become immortal, on and on - that she knows he would absolutely never place as burdens on her shoulders. Claire knows him enough to know the amount of responsibility he takes for every bad thing that happens to any of them. As a result, she's gentle with him in her approach. ]
I'm not going to talk to him just because you told me not to. I can't promise that I won't ever. I want to be honest with you about that. But Peter - [ She pauses, chewing on the words in her mouth until their good and raw. ] Look, people have spent the majority of my life lying to me. You're the only one who's ever been honest. I'm not gonna forget that.
[ She's eighteen. She can make her own decisions. But so much of who she is has been shaped by him, and she'll stand by him in the face of most things and resent everything that makes her choose otherwise. ]
[ peter appreciates all of it in a way he can't rightly express - appreciates isn't even the right word, save for how he feels about her not smacking him in the face over it. even if he deserves it; every single person who's told him it wasn't his fault is wrong and peter knows it. but he still appreciates being treated like the good guy when he knows he isn't. but when it comes to claire... she's everything that's ever made him feel connected and to still have that even after he's royally fucked up (yet again) is all that's important. ]
I know you won't. Just- promise you won't listen to his bullshit?
[ because it's all he'll feed you. it's all there'll be. and peter forgets that as often as anyone else. ]
Don't worry. I've had to listen to Sylar for more than five minutes. I'm pretty used to pompous bullshit. [ More importantly - ] What's this guy look like?
Short blonde hair, only a little taller than I am. Maybe a couple inches. Average build? [ a beat. start describing him too much more and all that staring he used to do will become a little more evident. ]
Yeah, but that doesn't count. [ snort, wait hold on. can they maybe not compare the two. ] I mean- Spike counts, he just isn't anything like Adam. Adam's got shorter hair and he's taller, for one thing. For another, Adam's a little less punk rock.
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[ peter blames himself for it anyway. not as much as he used to, but talking about it is always a reminder of what he's done wrong. like exploding in new york is a reminder of how dangerous he can be - other people's reactions are everything and knowing how others feel are all that matters at time when he wants to know if he's done something wrong. they're not all and he knows, he knows it's not his fault but at the same time he's completely aware that without his help, they wouldn't have been anything at all. ]
I just need you to know. I don't want you to talk to him but you will because I can't tell you what to do and i'm not going to try. [ though he wishes he could. ] But you need to know who he is, Claire. Because he won't tell you the truth.
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I'm not going to talk to him just because you told me not to. I can't promise that I won't ever. I want to be honest with you about that. But Peter - [ She pauses, chewing on the words in her mouth until their good and raw. ] Look, people have spent the majority of my life lying to me. You're the only one who's ever been honest. I'm not gonna forget that.
[ She's eighteen. She can make her own decisions. But so much of who she is has been shaped by him, and she'll stand by him in the face of most things and resent everything that makes her choose otherwise. ]
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I know you won't. Just- promise you won't listen to his bullshit?
[ because it's all he'll feed you. it's all there'll be. and peter forgets that as often as anyone else. ]
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Don't worry. I've had to listen to Sylar for more than five minutes. I'm pretty used to pompous bullshit. [ More importantly - ] What's this guy look like?
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Very british.
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[ Honestly, she's joking. ]
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Any of them started talking about how long they've been alive for? [ Please say no. ]
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No, that hasn't actually come up in conversation. [ Pause. ] Well, actually, yeah, Spike mentioned something like that. But he's Spike.
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[ ... whatever that means. ] If that helps any.
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[ She gets it, Peter, she actually does. It's just fun to tease you. ]
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Something like that.